Physically and emotionally I am exhausted.
Art show prep is in it's final days which means lots of extra time at school. Yesterday we had a crazy downpour and my street flooded...that left my backyard with 3" of water in it plus I head to wade through knee high water to get to my house. A combo of bailing, pumping and wet vacing kept most of the water out of the basement. These are some key reasons for my physical exhaustion.
Clearly grief is the root of my emotional exhaustion...that kind of goes without saying I suppose. Honestly, I am tired of feeling the way I do. I love my boys and I miss them with every particle of my being. While my triggers don't drag me down to my darkest depths like they used to, however they still cause a hurt that can't be ignored.
Feeling something close to normal feels like a dream...