The alternate title for this post would be "why I went to see 'What.to.Expect,' the movie."
Yup...I went and saw it...a pretty unlikely movie choice for a baby loss momma who has battled unknown fertility issues. Honestly the only reason I decided I wanted to go see it was because I needed to laugh at a completely Hollywood-ized depiction of pregnancy. My experiences with pregnancy have been so atypical and stressful that I just needed one night of feeling average or normal.
(FYI...spoilers ahead)
It was not the best movie I've ever seen but I also liked that it wasn't completely shiny happy perfect either. Granted it does have happy endings for pretty much everyone in spite of touching on infertility, adoption, miscarriage, preterm labor and a near miss with maternal death. I laughed, I was cynical and shed not one single tear...ironic since a commercial made me cry a few hours earlier.
Mostly I sat comfortably with the illusion that I was just another pregnant lady seeing this cheesy flick with a girl friend...happily feeling my boy kicking away pretty much the whole time. I left most of my worries at home for a few hours. While the movie might not have been fantastic, the illusion of normalcy was completely worth it.
Two pieces of my heart that are gone forever and a new piece that brought back joy.
It's amazing how we can sneak around looking all normal and pregnant and unless we tell our stories, no one will ever be the wiser. We hide in plain sight.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you enjoyed the movie. I've been thinking about going to see it.
So brave of you! Glad it was fun :)
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