This past Sunday I painted the faces of 20 wee princesses at a friend's daughters birthday party. It was a fun distraction and I was super busy!
During the lull of pizza time the woman who was giving the girls princess braids asked the question anyone that has dealt with infertility or lost their baby/babies dreads. "Do you have kids." Ugh!
Lately, if someone asks I say, " only the two I carry in my heart." which often leads to a quizzical look and the subject is changed. Rarely do I get asked what I mean. But this time...at a little girl's birthday party...it just didn't seem appropriate to set the stage for my sad explanation so I just said no.
I hate that saying no is the socially preferred response. I hate that no is far too simple an answer to a loaded question.
I hate even more that I can't say yes!
The honest truth that no one wants to hear is that yes, I do have two sons but sadly their life ended as fast as it began.
Their names are William and Ethan and they were beautiful. I miss them so much!