Thursday, December 30, 2010

Art Journal - Tears


Yesterday was full of tears."

And that about sums up my day yesterday. I created this page today as yesterday was definitely a very emotional day. I cried like I have yet to cry yet since my sweet peas died. Sometimes it was a silent cry, other times it was a wailing, moaning, sobbing cry. There were cries that fell somewhere in between.

Hubby returned to work this week and I think being alone with my grief has magnified my feelings. Today feels better though. Later I go to my OB for a postpartum check up and there might be tears then, but for now I am all cried out.


  1. Hi there,
    I'm here from Lost and Found...

    So sorry to hear of the loss of your twin boys, your sweet peas. Your paintings are beautiful.

    Sending love and light.

  2. Hi Jessica, I found your blog from Lost and Found. I am so sorry you lost your baby boys. I'm sorry you are in this place. And I'm sorry you have to begin this new year without them.

    Your artwork is beautiful. I hope this space brings you comfort and helps you on your healing journey. After 4 and a half months without my son, I can honestly say blogging and all of the women I have met along the way have helped me heal.

    Sending you my love and prayers.

  3. Hi Jessica,

    I clicked into your blog from Lost and Found. I just wanted to send a quick note to let you know how terribly sorry I am that William and Patrick are in Heaven and not still here with you. I know it doesn't change anything, or probably bring much comfort, but know that my twins (Oscar & Bella) and 1/2 of my subsequent pregnancy (Tittle) are looking out for your boys and showing them the ropes in Heaven.

    Sending you hugs,

  4. I am here from Lost and Found too. Almost year ago I delivered our still born twin boys at 20 weeks. I feel a connection to you as another mother who lost her twin boys and all the dreams that went along with them.

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I wish there were words I could say that would help. The only comfort that I was able to find was other women who had suffered losses too. You will find that more woman in your life have lost a child one way or another than you every imagined.

    Your artwork is beautiful and I am sure it will become a treasured keepsake. I found comfort in my blogging and many keepsakes.

    I read an earlier post of yours and you stated seeing pregnant women isn't painful; I wouldn't be commenting otherwise as my intent is to bring comfort not pain. But if for some reason you pop over to my blog I didn't want you to be unprepared. Basically, we are so lucky to be expecting our #3 or our first take home baby (hopefully) in February.

  5. I'm also here from LFCA, and just wanted to say I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious boys. We lost our daughter at 23 weeks a little more than a year ago. This is an awful road to be on, but I promise the day to day living eventually does get a little easier.