Today I needed to do something...sitting at home lesson planning for the new school year wasn't going to cut it (even if I have so much to do I should have).
I've been meaning to go for a hike in the local nature preserve and today was the day. I figured I would follow that up with a swim at the local pool and a trip to Star.bucks before the hubby arrived home. And that is exactly what I did! I packed a lunch, head for the Reservation (aka nature preserve) and hit the trail. It was a 2 1/2 mile hike out to this little water fall I had heard about so I thought that would be a good place to hike out to, have lunch and then come back. The trails are easy/moderate throughout so it wasn't too long to do 5 miles round-trip. What I didn't count on is meandering footpaths that criss-cross the marked trails so my hike was probably more like 7 miles all told. Thankfully it was easy going and absolutely beautiful. Not as tranquil as I was hoping since I was barely 100 yards from a major road and cars/sirens could be heard in the distance practically the whole time. It is amazing how you can see nothing but forest, feel like you are in the middle of no where and still hear a car alarm.
On my hike back to my car I was starting to mull over where I am with my grief and what it means that we are going ahead with the FET cycle. I had this over-whelming feeling that the further forward I move that the farther away I get from my boys...am I forgetting them? Leaving them behind as we try for another baby? No sooner did I think the thought I looked down and saw this...
A heart rock...seriously! As I mentioned previously, I have been seeing hearts everywhere and this one couldn't have brought me more peace than it did. I must have stood there for 5 minutes staring at it. How could it not be a sign from my boys?!? And then I knew, no matter how much time passes, no matter what I do or where I go they are always with me. They are there in my heart always.
Here are some other pretty things I saw along the hike...
And this is kind of fun...I was drawn to this rock and it wasn't until I sat reviewing my pictures as I ate my lunch that I noticed it looked like a head poking out of the ground (the nose is sticking out the right side and the shadow is under the eyebrow).
No doubt in my mind that your boys are with you at all times and nudging you to look when there is a heart nearby saying "Hi Mama, We're here." Looks like a beautiful peaceful hike and just what you needed.
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