Thursday, December 8, 2011

This is what hope looks like...

Today is transfer day...and it surprises me how much hope I feel. We had two sweet specks of hope transferred back this afternoon. We even have our remaining two frozen in reserve.

It scares the crap out of me to feel hope again, but it is time to let that feeling back in to my heart. Living without it hurt like hell, but letting myself feel it knowing there are so many odds against us is what I need to do...after all this might just work (heavy emphasis on might).

For now, this is what hope looks like...


  1. What a beautiful image of hope. Sending positive thoughts and hugs your way.

  2. I almost forgot! That's wonderful news. Wishing you SO much hope. I wish I could offer more than well wishes. You deserve some hope, especially after this very difficult month.

  3. Grow specks GROW! So thrilled for you.. and holding so much hope.

  4. Beautiful, holding hope close with you!!! You've probably seen this poem before but it seems fitting.

    A Different Child
    by Pandora MacMillian

    People notice
    There's a special glow around you.
    You grow
    Surrounded by love,
    Never doubting you are wanted;
    Only look at the pride and joy
    In your mother and father's eyes.

    And if sometimes
    Between the smiles
    There's a trace of tears,
    One day
    You'll understand.

    You'll understand
    There was once another child
    A different child
    Who was in their hopes and dreams.

    That child will never outgrow the baby clothes
    That child will never keep them up at night
    In fact, that child will never be any trouble at all.
    Except sometimes, in a silent moment,
    When mother and father miss so much
    That different child.

    May hope and love wrap you warmly
    And may you learn the lesson forever
    How infinitely precious
    How infinitely fragile
    Is this life on earth.

    One day, as a young man or woman
    You may see another mother's tears
    Another father's silent grief
    Then you, and you alone
    Will understand
    And offer the greatest comfort.

    When all hope seems lost,
    You will tell them
    With great compassion,
    "I know how you feel.
    I'm only here
    Because my mother tried again.

  5. Hoping everything works out for you. Fingers crossed!

  6. Wishing you LOTS of luck and hoping for the absolute best. xo